Promises

I never thought the nightmares will coming back to me since 2008
In fact
It got worse now

Where were the promises?

You thought I had you in difficult situation
How about myself?
I'm fighting against myself
Fighting the right
Making silence protest
I know it is worthless and useless
But at least I try
I know I'm being selfish
Well let's face it
Who is being selfish here??

Speechless

Speechless
It's been awhile
It feels good to come back
Although it took lots of guts and courage
Well
Lets face it
No one will help you but myself
It's been awhile
Drowning myself in a hope to ****
Again
Lets face it
It wont happen unless I step up
Speechless

-2009-

Brand New Year
Barnd New Life
Let this New Year be like a plane ride with God as your pilot
Dreams as your wings
Hope as your fuel
Love as your engine
"Good Friends" as your crew
Faith as your safety belt
&
Happiness as your passengers
Wishing you all a beautiful journey through this year and your whole life through
May your dreams and wishes come true
Happy New Year 2009
-cheers-

Home

Home
means nothing to me
after my "brother" came to destroy
No one will be happy
My parents suffer
My sisters struggle
I personally feel that
home is not home
home is just for us to stay and sleep
without happiness
Nothing special

HATE

Hating people
I admit that is very tough
Suffer feeling that I've never try
But now
I'm fucking hate my brother!!!
I really do
And I even hate myself
For believing him
I have no idea why

-300508-

300508
I still remember
This was my nightmare!!!
All I wanted
Its get rid of him
But my family seems to wanted to keep him
I have no choice
I'm f***ing hate myself
Why I borrowed my card to him
So that he can go to China?
And now he seems to pretend that he doesn't know anything
I'm so damn stupid!!
I really really wanted to move out
Or just get rid of him
In order for me to have peaceful life!

TIme Of My Life

Started to think back
This half year
really really damn sucks!
Just doing my best
to fight for my time of my own life!